The Holes Within Me (literal meaning)

Yes, you read right. I have holes in my body. 4 in my mouth to be precise. I went for a mouth operation on Tuesday and the dentist drilled holes in my mouth and put in screws. And the operation wasn’t as traumatic because the anesthesia was doing its job and it didn’t hurt at all. How deceiving. I wasn’t allowed to see what they were doing though, all I heard was drilling noises and I could feel being screwed (lol). The dentist thought I was 15 (srsly??) and said to imagine there’s construction in my mouth! It was an hour later when I was in the train with my dad when the full force of the pain hit me. And it flipping hurt. I honestly have never felt such physical pain in my almost 19 years of existence. Fracturing an ankle, getting both ears pierced at the same moment all could not even come close to how much pain I felt. So yea, I might have cried a little on the train home. Hahah I bet people thought I was just dumped or something!

And can I say this, I’ll never think well of dentists. Seriously, if you’re my friend and you choose to be a dentist, I’ll seriously de-friend you. Haha just kidding! Or am i? =O

Anyway! Went to the flyer on thurs with the cousins and ilhan :D it was really quite fun because the previous time I went to the flyer (with the PSLs in sec3?), it was daytime and there was construction everywhere so the sight ain’t very pretty. But this time round I went at 7pm so I could see the sunset and the transition from day to night! Really nice :D But sadly, it was quite a cloudy day so the sunset wasn’t very obvious! Have some photos down here taken with my phone (hence the poor resolution!). Most of the photos were taken with my aunt’s min-dslr so I don’t have it right now. As usual, the only activity to do on the flyer would be to look at the scenery and camwhore. Yuppp :)

Shall do a new years post in a while! On a side note, I’m totally addicted to Adam lambert’s new single ‘Better than I know myself”. What a tune, and the lyrics were brill! Love this line: “If I wanted to leave, I would have left by now”. What a loaded phrase. Very very romantic and poetic in my eyes! Then again, I always pegged him as someone who oozed sensuality, like me. Har har, I kid :D

Feeling happeh :D

Yup im feeling really happy right now! I've found some joy in this website personalitycafe.com or PerC :) It really helped me figure out who i am and i am discovering more about myself everyday. It's so amazing how there are so many people who know EXACTLY what i think and feel and whose thought process is pretty identical to mine. (haha not forever alone anymore!)

It's these little things that i never really took time to figure out that has helped me feel more comfortable in my own skin. Well, its just a flippin wonderful feeling having people understand and rationalise your convoluted thoughts. For those who don't know what im talking about, you should take these personality tests, particularly the MBTI & enneagram. It's really interesting and eye-opening. Gives you perspective on why people act the way they do. Why you act the way you do.

I have to admit though, it's pretty intimidating there. There are users from all walks of life from those in their 30s to a 52 year old. And then there's people like me. So yea there's all these accomplished people who are so articulate and eloquent who are able to express & analyse their thought processes so well. In short, it gets pretty intimidating for lil ol' me. But i'm learning something precious everyday and appreciating those who are similar and different from me, so all's good :)

Here's a short summary on the two types of personality theories (to get you interested!)

Enneagram: This examines your life's motive. There are essentially 9 types of people. This isn't to pigeon hole you or put you in a box because everyone is different and moulded by circumstances and inborn characteristics. Rather, it's to help you step out of your usual pattern of thinking, recognise your flaws and be more open-minded :)

MBTI: This is used to see how you gather and process information. There are 16 ways and this theory is more widespread than the enneagram. I had a workshop about this in cedar i remember! and then a talk about it in MJ also.

Yup basically this has been my latest personal interest! Unfortunately, i don't think i'm capable of persuing psychology as a career even though the passion is defo there. Have yet to find anyone i can discuss all these theories with in person ): But yea anyway, crux of the post is that I love having someone speak my mind in ways that I can't.

ON A MORE DEPRESSING NOTE..i have an operation tomorrow where they're gonna sedate me and all. Sarkks.

"Time can change perspectives, and just because something once had a certain meaning, doesn’t mean that it always has to have that meaning.”

Absolutely gutted

Cos my boyfriend is dating another girl nooooooo. ); Hahah okay shall stop being a typical fangirl.