From MLIA :)

A couple of days ago my friends and i were debating over whether our teacher really reads our essays or not. to try prove that he doesnt, i wrote in the middle of my essay 'mr mac, do you really read our work?' when i got it back he had circled it and said 'yes. yes i do.' MLIA

Today I realized whenever I go in a bathroom I grasp my phone a little tighter because I'm afraid I'll drop it in the tiolet. I'm sure I'm not the only one. MLIA.

Today, I spent an hour petting my dog. It was only when I turned on the light that I realized it had been a pillow. MLIA.

Today, my sister and I were hungry so we went through the Mcdonalds drive through. I drive a rather old beat up car, and as we pulled up to the window to get our food the worker looked at me and sarcastically said "Nice car." Without missing a beat my 11 year old sister leans over the seat and said "Nice job." That shut him up. MLIA.

hahaha, found it super funny :D hope that turned your frown upside down!

No secrets right? Pffft.

It's days like this i feel so lost.
Am i back to square one?
It's like i don't even know you anymore. Maybe i never truly did in the first place.
I keep telling myself that yes, i know you. Of course i do
But i'm not so sure.

The urge to give up is so strong, yet i know i can't.
I can give up on everything, but not this.
It's just..i've tried so hard, so long. Only to move one step forward, and two steps back.
Why?

It's days like this I feel like i've truly lost a huge part of me, which is you. Like somehow along the way, we've ceased to care, we're just too preoccupied with life, with other things, with other people.
I thought i knew you cared. Now im starting to doubt..

I sincerely don't understand the complexity of one's mind. Seriously.


PI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHH. MAJOR SARKY-NESS.

Spirit In The Night

The past few days have been srsly awesome :)
Like somehow the influx and overload of homework doesnt even make me feel that down.

Went back to Cedar fr the Dance concert on thurs night. Had some very interesting (but nevertheless, enjoyable) company :D did you know boys gossip just as much as girls? HAHA. Got to know alena's friends khairul and Ernest.



Friday & Sat- CGEB CAMP ZOMG!

It was one of the funnest camp i've ever atteneded. Period. CGEB board's filled with so many enthusiastically loud individuals. Found myself a group of close friends :)
It's amazing how 10 minutes spent sitting down and talking could bond the 3 of us so well!
:D i dont feel so left out anymore!

Sigh, i can barely stay awake past 8pm on weekdays. Life's been so exhasuting. Can't wait fr A's to end. 1.5 years, not too long i guess.

And to you, i know you'll never read this but could you at least give me a clue? a hint? Stop messing with my head. It's hard enough seeing you everyday.

And to another you, i don't know what your problem is. I'm trying to understand where you're coming from, but frankly i can't. You have absolutely no right to do that. You had your chance to speak freely, to have what you wanted. It's a little too late now. Why can't you just be happy fr me? Like how i've always been fr you. Am i asking too much?

My parents are such comics!

Mum was telling me that dad was hiding behind the toilet door, waiting to scare her. But she saw thru the mirror a certain someone's stomach protuding!

OMG FAIL.

TELL ME WHICH OF YOUR PARENTS STILL HIDE BEHIND DOORS TO SCARE ONE ANOTHER.

And people still ask me why im so childish ;)

Suppressing isn't easy

I can't concentrate on my very overdued PI when my mind's running a thousand miles per hour.
I dont think you know huh. Mind over matter or heart over brain?

In fact, i'm listening to justin bieber's 'Baby' over and over again to distract myself from my thoughts.

I'll be mulling about this non-stop tmr, i bet.
To ease the accumulated frustration within VS being the better person i know i can be?

Thank god im meeting bestie tmr :D ( i hope!)


TAG REPLIES
miss.encouraging.person: sry fr the super duper late reply! BUT THANK YOU!!!! That really made my day, and helped a lot :D Tag often yea?
Hawa: HAHA You're always awake during maths pls!
sya: I miss you tons more, i bet! :)
C!: awww, thanks! i love you more than you love my post tho hahaha
Hawa: OMG WHATEVER HAWA!! ^^

To you,

please stop invading my thoughts.
Seriously.

I could use my very limited brain cells on more fruitful things.

I will not be a pawn.
Not again.



And HOWW MY PI!