I know this is an overdue apology but well..
I'm sincerely sorry if i've hurt you and caused you pain in the past. Please know that i never meant any of it.
Yes, i was too blind to see how my actions were affecting you and just how selfish i was being.
I guess i can understand why you chose to stop being friends with me. i would have done the same if i were in your shoes.

I'm sorry, really.

daily dosage of MLIA :)

Funny and adorable MLIAs :) totally rofl-worthy!

Today, I met my dad who had been drafted to the army for 15 years, so I barely remember him. How did I meet him? By him turning up at my house in a full out Darth Vader costume going "I am your father." I think we're going to hit it off just fine. MLIA

The other day I saw a girl that I don't like very much. She was wearing a horrible shirt so I casually walked by and said to my friends very loudly "Wow nice shirt." I then looked over at her and she started laughing. I didn't understand this until I looked down and saw I was wearing the exact same shirt. MLIA.

Just now my 9 year old brother who I had just sent to bed came downstairs with teary eyes saying a monster was roaring outside. I told him it was only the top secret government dinosaurs having a race, he nodded very seriously and went back to bed. His MLIA

Today, I got a compliment on my make up from an elderly woman. She was so adorable I didn't have the heart to tell her that I wasn't wearing any. MLIA

A few days ago I was in a clothing store and I bumped into someone very hard and we both fell to the ground. When we had both gotten to our feet I apologized to him. It took me twenty seconds to realized I had just walked into a mirror. MLIA.

The last one's hilarious! :D

Found this! hahaha, I hate having a round face ;)

and i can't access google US. Whyy):

Thinking about what a friend said to me today.
After this year, i won't have a chance anymore.
So i should seize the day, carpe diem and all that.
but why does it seem so hard? so daunting?
The very idea of it scares me to bits.
How about actually carrying it out?

I'm still trying to feel comfortable in my own skin.

I don't want to be so bothered about what others think anymore.
I know what's right, and i should be proud I chose to do it and that i'm sticking to my decisions.

Our stay in this world is short and temporary. We've been given brains to think, to be able to think for ourselves and not be influenced by others around us. I admit, it's much easier said than done and I too, am guilty on several counts. Alas, it's whether we choose to correct our mistakes or continue making it that really matters.

haha okay my posts have been really vague as of late :) i find it much easier to express myself without having the whole internet really know what I mean.

So much for wishing):

"Man can never be a woman's equal in the spirit of selfless service with which nature has endowed her." - Mohandas Gandhi

So true, the beauty of women. Especially mothers.

And and my new favourite quote:

"We are formed and molded by our thoughts. Those whose minds are shaped by selfless thoughts give joy when they speak or act. Joy follows them like a shadow that never leaves them. " - Buddha

This quote is too beautiful :)

Selflessness

My aim in life: to be selfless. Sacrificing your own happiness so that those around you can be happy.

Sometimes i forget this, i become so self-absorbed and selfish. I need to remind myself more often i guess.

It's okay if the people most important to you dont think you're as important to them. Just be glad that there are important people in his/her life in the first place.

It's okay if the people you love don't love you back, it's okay if you give so much more than what others give you. It's okay, it'll all be okay. Afterall, selflessness is the key to self-fulfilment and satisfaction. What do we live for, if not to make life less difficult for each other?

"Only those who have learned the power of sincere and selfless contribution experience life's deepest joy: true fulfillment. " - Tony Robbins

Who wants to be my 800th friend on FB?
Heeh :D

and arghh i can't find my nball shirt):

I'm doing a dobby right now. Yknow, banging my head repeatedly with the lamp and then against the wall. haha kidding, not literally cos that'd hurt. But i feel like doing it cos i cant believe what just happened. Someone shoot me in the foot or smtg pls.

):

I wish i had no sense of shame so then i won't be feeling this paiseh!
Oh well.

The issue of assimiliation has me thinking and questioning all around me. Is there any merit or truth in what he's saying? I wonder.

I can't say much more on the issue at hand, not online anyway.

Reunion Dinner :)

My MSN's spoiled, so i can't chat online anymore ): and i kinda dont know how to fix it!

the long weekend hasn't been very productive, but it's proven to be a good rest fr me to recover from orientation and what not. Orientation was really fun, except the real fun only kicked in from 2nd day onwards (in my opinion). Regardless, being and ogl was blardy awesum :D :D and i don't regret my decision at all. CNY celeb day was awesum as well :D the half hour we spammed 1,000 water bombs when the school was empty was simply magical. All the laughter and screams :) I think i've fallen in love with CGEB even more.

Went home and had our own version of 'reunion dinner'. Photos below.

bro digging in!

dad and bro posing :) they're really chinese looking! i'm the only malay-looking person in my family


our tom yam soup before steamboat-ing it

Mee! and vege (ew) plus tofu and eggs

Fishballs, fish cakes, crabstick, prawns, squid and meatttt (my fav!)

All still raw!

tada! dinner was yummy ^^

When i finally pluck up the courage...