The Book Of Eli

Halfway through maths lecture and i felt like i couldn't go on, needed to sleep desperately!
I think i was in those semi-sleeping state (like half asleep, half awake?) when somehow i saw "The BOOK OF ELI" on the screen instead of maths stuff!

(*note to readers, i was dreaming lah. Haha, dreaming during lecture)

Sooo, i wanted to ask leling who was sitting beside me about it.

But decided against it, and went back to sleep.

Realised the stupidity of it all when i woke up and regained sanity! thank god i didnt ask her. She'd be like o.0 , i bet.

To My Lucky Pink Socks

Even though you're really ugly, i'd sincerely like to thank you for today.
I'm sorry i've always treated you like sheet and almost always reluctant to wear you, unless i absolutely have no other pair of socks left.

For putting up with my crappy attitude towards you and still being magnanimous enough to grant me that few minutes of utter joy today,

Thank you


:D

(i know i know i should be thanking god, and not inanimate objects like my socks. Haha, i am thankful to god okay!)

To Wish Impossible Things

There comes a point in life when you'll realise how horrible a person you've been. And you'll try to correct your mistakes, reflect and attempt to improve. To be that person you've always dreamed of being, if not for the many things holding you back.

There'll come a point in life when you'll feel..blank. And empty. You'll realise you have this huge gaping hole in your soul. You'll want to cry so badly, but you won't know why you feel so. Where everything around you seems to be going wrong, and you'll feel so helpless. As though no one understands, but you know that isn't true.

Mistakes are made so that you won't be foolish enough to repeat them. You use past experiences you have to aid you when similar troubles come your way. I never dreamed i'd have to go through this whole thing again. Only this time, it's worse.

Maybe being idealistic has always been the root of the problem. To wish impossible things, which at the start seemed so attainable, so near...so expected.

To numb yourself from feeling.
To be optimisitic, even when it's impossible to be so.
To be strong, even when everything inside you is crumbling

When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.

):


sry, just talking to myself!

SINGAPORE : An SMRT spokesman has said that some 5,000 passengers were affected when an eastbound train service was disrupted on Saturday afternoon.

A passenger had jumped onto the track at Tanah Merah MRT Station and was hit by a train heading towards Pasir Ris.

SMRT said that to maintain services on the East—West line, eastbound trains were turned around at Eunos and Tanah Merah MRT stations, while the middle platform at Tanah Merah MRT Station was used for eastbound train services.

Announcements were made in all stations and on affected trains to inform passengers of the delay and to advise them that the trains may be more crowded.

Normal service resumed at around 3.40pm

And i travel this way every morning/evening

=O

Quality, not quantity

This week has seriously been a blast. Spending time with my good friends never fail to make me a happier person and recharged for the grueling term ahead. After tuition, went to TM with mum to shop for sports shoes. And just my luck, all the models i was okay with didn't come in my size. Sheesh. Ate pizza hut with mum cos swensens was totally packed and the queue wasnt moving. Afterwards, watched Remember Me with yan hong yesterday. And sadly, the movie sucked. Seriously! I only enjoyed the first and last 5 minutes of the show. Which means i didn't enjoy the other 100 minutes of the show. D:

So sad lah, i thought it'd be a pretty decent show since robert pattinson (sp?) and Pierce Brosnan were starring in it. Potentially one of the worst movies i've ever watched. Yan hong and I were so zzzzz after the show, took a while for us to recover from that.

AND I WANNA WATCH DEAR JOHN DAMMIT.

But there's no more show times that aren't too late.

Anyway, had a nice time catching up with tauge :) Today went out with C! She's still so hilarious lah. *touches nose* HAHA. Chilled at BK toa payoh for about half an hour while waiting fr C. And decided to buy some onion rings plus lemon tea. AND OMG IT COST ME $5++ wth! so ex. Not gonna step inside BK ever again! Haha, and C was craving pastamania, so went to J8.

Moving on, bumped into brenda at bishan libe! She's still so cute :D Did 2 full econs essay, woah right? AND PEPOLE IN THE CHAIR + TABLE INDUSTRY SHOULD SOOO DONATE MORE CHAIRS AND TABLES TO BISHAN LIBRARY. Students were like all over the floor studying! And there's this lady in a "SECURITY" Jacket going round telling people to SHADDUP nicely, of course :) lol.

I'm refusing to do homework tonight. Gonna suffer the consequence tmr D:

GP tuition starts tmr morn, im quite scared. Sigh.

Interesting convo of the day :

nur amirah ha ha ha says:

whatchoo doing?

endy says:

just about to hand the laptop over to my friend so he can play dota and i can play halo xD

nur amirah ha ha ha says:

You wanna play halo?

okay i start

HELLLO :D

your turn!

endy says:

HALO LA STUPID

with the aliens and whatnot

nur amirah ha ha ha says:

i know lah stupider

just wanna annoy you :D

worked ey?

HAHAH

okay we can play Bai now

I start

BYE

((:

HAHAHHA

okay lah, i admit im a bit retarded! heeh.

FB is annoyingly addictive.

I can't have both, i know.

Things that shouldn't be bothering me are driving me crazy.

GP essay is due in about 24 hours time, and i haven't done it D:

This week has been hectic. Last fri was a sch holiday! spent it preparing fr camp and all our logistics. Sat and sun was my madrasah (religious school) camp!

I was stressed, no doubt. But i really love my games team <3 we made it through the past 3 months which i admit, was quite nightmare-ish. Nevertheless, i made so many new friends thru this camp and the whole process! I've made really good friends like irfan and amirah ali and iffa :D and so many others! And getting to know the captains and personnel.


It's really amazing when something you've hated and despised so much finally comes to an end, you miss it like hell. And i miss bunayya a lot a lot (Omg i can't believe im saying this).


From games team preparing game after game without much rest AT ALL to the long captains' meets to talking a lot with bai (:D) to being unable to squeeze myself inside the tent and thus sleeping while sorta sitting to the countless times i called up and messaged each games member. So many memories formed :D


Moving on! I couldn't stay awake during monday's lecture, no matter how many mango tic tacs i popped into my mouth (six i think) to shaking my head awake, to slapping my self, to pinching myself to asking people to pinch me. SIGH): total failure.


I blame camp! Haha, went out with some A202 dudes fr bfast at macs before we went to the libe to play truth or dare. Haha, funny questions :) went home with hawa and evey! Went around tamp with evey fr awhile before fetching sya and heading to my house to slack :D We ate a lot of junk food, caught up and baked! tho cookies turned out a little burnt


Tuesday
Went fr tuition in the morn, cldnt stay awake AGAIN. ): Sigh.

Went home fr awhile to sleep and then went to orchard to meet fatimah!
Yay, we caught up and it was so nice just talking to you dear :) tho our meet-up was extremely short. saw irsyad!

After, rushed to tamp to meet sya to go GIANT. Reached home at 9 i think.

Wednesday
Cheered the school team on! The netball friendly with TPJC wasn't exactly friendly =/
Okay, but what do i know right? it was my first time at a real nball match!
Mj won, i think? hehehe, wasn't keeping track.
Endy was being stoopid and didnt want to leave the house to meet me. So, i
slacked with ping hao fr a while before meeting khadija and may fr lunch! OMG THIS TWO GIRLS ARE SO FUNNY I CAN ALMOST SWEAR!
non-stop bickering. Hahahaha ^^

Sorry i cldn't come to sentosa with you guys and missing the whole patrol outing. ):

Ok my posts consist of boring recounts of what i did. Heh

March hols are finally here!
Can't wait fr monday to come though, freedom at last :D (at best.)
MadrCamp's so argh. Cant wait fr it to be over, finally finally.

Today was super long. Felt a little down a few times. Then again, i've been down quite often lately.
Kai lin really cheered me up in her own small little ways, dont think she knows that though. :D
Went home with Chris, who even walked me home. :D
feels nice to be able to get along really well with someone.
HAHA your TEENAGE secret is definitely safe with me!
Too bad he's moving soon. ):

Talked to irfan on the phone today too, till he got cut off
hahaha :D total de-stress moment!

I hope people who aren't supposed to find my blog don't find my blog.
And i don't want to private my blog either.
Hmmm

This post is so neargh. Just random blabbering!


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wouldn't you want to know?

There's Always A Price Tag

Hello guys :D

im super absolutely sorry for the lack of posts.
Life's been super busy. I'l have much much more time during the march holidays for a proper post!

I didnt go to school today. I've been really sick the past few weeks, and im glad im finally getting better (i think). Dam you, lousy immunity system.

Road race and camp run-thru on sat. Heard the class enjoyed our $80 worth of B&Js ice cream voucher :D I couldn't come though!
Went to bishan, met up with bai and talked a lot :)
Camp run-thru was okay i guess, except for that misfortuante event.
Managed to talk a lot with iffa about many things! and thanks iffa for the ride home


Passerby: hellooo :) thank you! life's been hectic, sadly D: but it's okay!
C!: ahahhaha tada!
nellie: i need to talk to youuuu! (when you're not busy)
simoneeeee: Juniorrrrr! haaha hello :D i apologised fr not replying in person alrd! but still, sorry ah): thanks fr tagging! hehe
passerby: HAHA THANKS!
Mar: Mar i can't access your blog! ):

My mind's a total mess right now. D:

How could i have been so stupid to repeat the same mistake? The last encounter left me empty and broken, and i'm dumb enough to think i'm alright. I tried to supress my feelings, and now i can't rmb how it's like to feel.

-- deleted cos i'm trying to be a magnanimous person --

I might be more messed up than i thought i was.

Sighhh.

I miss sya and hun.):

and C, and alena, and khad, and fat, and so many others