It

I absolutely hated it
I had to touch it's hands

I hate it's voice
I hate it's smell
I hate him it

It intruded my sanctuary tonight
The dread at seeing it again
was indescribable

Maybe i shouldn't judge
But how can i help it?
I shouldn't hate
I shouldn't

Damn it.

I sat in complete darkness

No thoughts.
No emotions
No, not today

There's a void within me
I think i know what can fix it
Yet that's not the answer
Not today

Empty,
All Blank.

Expect the Unexpected - NCO 09

I filed every single piece of ws/note/test today for every single subject.
I cleared rubbish and unuseful things from my room today
It took me 3 hours.
I feel accomplished

:)

NCO was true to it's theme - unexpected. Maybe its my fault for suggesting the theme and things happening because of the theme? maybe maybe..):

It was our last camp together as Sec4s ):
It didn't really feel like a camp )):

But nevertheless, you guys never fail to make me smile
:D

and hahaha i shall tell everyone a secret now

KHADIJA
IS
A
......
......

CAMWHORE Very photogenic person

hahah :D :D

Sec3s who might happen to read this (but i doubt so),
You guys really showed your perseverance throughout the entire camp.
We're really proud of every single one of you :D

annnndd

the guides blog has scouts tagging! how amusing :)
First was the Hwachong ppl from chingay now its a vs scout who's a fellow guide's brother.
I find this very uh..interesting somehow!

I do not want to go to school tomorrowwwww...
I'm still tired):
Sometimes i wish the weekends were 3 days instd of only two


TAG REPLIES
C! :D : HAHAHA yes! HOHO i'll tell you the real deal in person! ^^
fatimah: Yay you finally tagged :D OMG you're soooo gna get it from me tomorrow. I TRUSTED YOU WITH MY SECRET!
simone: ahah yes i know! you told me when we went home together the other day! haha, and hello :D
khad: pfft, you love me more than your wallet la! i know it, i can see it in your eyes :)
ash: hahaha no, i will not remove it! :D you look nice in make-up! and you're the camera guy cos you're always the one with the camera luhh.
YANHONG: okay tauge:)

Cos' time is not precious

100 truths


1. last beverage→ Water
2. last phone call→ Mum.
3. last text message→ Nasuha
4. last song you listened to→ FM static - tonight
5. last time you cried→ Reading a thousand splendid suns :)

SIX
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice → no.
7. been cheated on → No
8. kissed someone & regretted it→ No
9. lost someone special? → yeah
10. been depressed? → Yup
11. been drunk and threw up? → Nope

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:Blue, white, uhh rainbow?

THIS YEAR(2009) HAVE YOU:
13. Made new friends → Yess!
14. Fallen out of love → heh yeah
15. Laughed until you cried → eh no
16. Met someone who changed you → no
17. Found out who your true friends were →Sort of
18. Found out someone was talking about you→ No
19. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ haha no!

20. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life?→ 80% of them
21. How many kids do you want to have→ i dont wanna go thru labour tho ):
22. Do you have any pets → Died, yes.
23. Do you want to change your name→ Used to.
24. What did you do for your last birthday? → Many awesome things with many awesome ppl :D
25. what time did you wake up today → 5.57am
26. What were you doing at midnight last night → Smashing Cake at Rabia's face :D :D
27. Name something you CANNOT wait for → david archuleta!
28. Last time you saw your father→ 2 hours ago
29. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? → Many things, being a better person
30. What are you listening to right now → the noisy fan
31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → hahaha NOPE
32. What's getting on your nerves right now? →that i'm not studying
33. Most visited webpage → facebook,google, my blog.
34. Whats your real name → Nur Amirah (my parents like to google my full name 0.o)
35. Nicknames→ argh, dont wanna talk about this!
36. Relationship Status → single
37. Zodiac sign → Capricon
38. Male or female or transgender? → the second.
39. Elementary School? → Gsps
40. Middle School → Cedar Girls'
41. High school → ? (ehh but high sch supposedly equivalent to sec right? :O)
42. Hair color → Blackish black
43. Long or short → Long. but with an urgh haircut
44. Height → 1XX cm
45. Do you have a crush on someone? → yesss :) many many including prev post!
46. What do you like about yourself? → the ability to pretend there's no such things as problems :) and making my friends laugh!
47. Piercings → ears
48. Tattoos → None
49. Righty or lefty → Righty!

FIRSTS :
50. First surgery → none!
51. First piercing → when i was 12 i think
52. First best friends → Arshad and mardhiah from kindergarten! HAHAH I RMB OMG
53. First sport you joined → Swimming when i was 4?
54. First pet→ Goldie the Goldfish
55. First vacation→ penang
56. First concert→ ? hmmm cant rmb
57. First crush→ primary two (haha omg right!)

RIGHT NOW:
58. Eating → Nothing.
59. Drinking→ Nothing.
60. Listening to → nothing
61. Waiting for → Sleep.

YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids → i should think so
59. Want to get married → yes
60. Careers in mind -> road sweeper outside VJ! (inside joke)

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
68. Lips or eyes → Lips? Eyes abit intimidating to look at luh
69. Hugs or kisses → Hugs.
70. Shorter or taller → Taller, gosh
71. Older or Younger → Older
72. Romantic or spontaneous → can i have both? hahaha :D
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → must have 12-packs. kidding!
74. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive i guess.
75. Hook-up or relationship → i'm not the hook-up type!
77. Trouble maker or hesitant → uhhh neither?

HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → Nope no
79. Drank hard liquor → No.
80. Lost glasses/contacts → yess.
81. Sex on first date → No.
82. Broken someone's heart → i dont know but i don't think so
83. Had your own heart broken → yea
85. Been arrested → No.
86. Turned someone down → i think?
87. Cried when someone died → yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl→ Heh no.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → Yes!
90. Miracles → Sadly, no.
91. Love at first sight → No);
92. Heaven → Yes.
93. Santa Clause → Nope
95. Kiss on the first date? → no
96. Angels → yea

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → yes yes yes
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → No no no.
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → maybe some are not-so-truths :/

(*muacks you david!*)

8 MORE DAYS!

Ended off a happy day :)
Had blog-designing initiative during guides tday, tho i kinda wanted to do jump rope initiative with coy 1): haha at least we had air-con
Went around ALLANG Heights with dear khadija and did many fun things!
Haha, and i shitted on my skirt apparently -.-"
and thank god you found your wallet.
I love love you khad!
:)


13 more days!
:D :D :D
(till i meet him - the man of my dreams! HAHAH)
Gosh i'm so excited just thinking about it.


How many a man has thrown up his hands at a time when a little more effort, a little more patience would have achieved success?
- Elbert Hubbard

yes, i'm tired
no, i'm not giving up

PSC '09 was awesome!

Laurentia rocks rocks :D

Shall do a long update soon

and i'm yet to do jia ai's post

THANK YOU

Yuen ping the super long lashes one

ting fang the always doing random split jumps one

Ash the always speaking out her many many ideas one

kimberly the super adorable one

Ashley the pro-ded photographer one

Aaron the wise and always willing to learn one

David the suuuper random and NOISY one

Clement the lemon tea who told us he lived in clementi (which turned out to be untrue!) one

Kenneth the nice one

Anthea the always high and always encouraging one

Ernest the always shouting at us to run faster one

HAHA :D

and special thanks to

those from cedar! for being so ON

michael! (for being fun to gossip with afterwards :D )

OC and facs

and all the hilarious and whacky people who made PSC such an awesome thing

:D :D

Bihyau, if you ever read this i'm very proud of you :D

You looked stressed most of the time, hahaha.

well it's finally over yea? :)