Someone, please tell me everything will turn out alright. That it'll all be okay.
I'm nothing short of scared. Terrified, even.
I dont want to feel all lonely again.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Friday, January 15, 2010
The feeling to stay beats the feeling to go
Sorry fr not updating!
This past week and a half have been...a whirlwind of events, really.
From being hit on by 2 old men while in JB to literally almost being hit by a senile guy at Eunos MRT. My birthday, and results. Submitting JAE form, going to open houses.
Let's start with the 9th of jan, the eve of my birthday!
Went to johor to do some (grocery) shopping -.-, and birthday dinner at my most fav food joint ever :D pictures next post! Anyway, while my family went to pray, i went to the toilet. There were 2 old man (prolly in their 40s i think) blocking the pathway. And when i tried walking past, they said a muslim greeting. Except that it was so very freaky and when i refused to answer back, they leered at me! Im serious and made comments. Freak lah.
I went inside the toilet. And hoped. And hoped. that they'd be gone by the time i exited the toilet. Knowing my luck, they just HAD to wait outside the toilet's entrance fr me. ARGHHHH.
Seriously. Like no life lah. Stalk girls outside the female restroom.
Anyway fast forward to midnight! Phone got jammed with messages! :D
And i was quite sad that some of my close friends cld forget my birthday! *coughcough*
in chrolonogical order,
THANK YOU
Sarah fr being the first to wish me! and fr the phone call!
Michael fr the midnight call :D or attempted midnight call anyway. Hahaha :)
Boy fr running into my room and wishing me
Syahirah fr the very, very interesting birthday message
Jia ai for wanting to wish on the dot at midnight!
Hock Xiang :)
Mardhiyyah and fr the lovely blog post too!
Jane, Mum, Lydia, Sherilyn, Carrol, Atiqah, person who wish to remain anonymous (hahah), Damia, Khadija, Fatimah, May, Alena, Endy
and the many many FB messages!
Ding jie (right on the dot!), HaoYee, Yanhong, michael, michelle, jane, lydia, xinyi, liyana, jocelyn, nurul, anthea, syuhaidah, alena, aliah, avery, Grace poh, Sarah chiang, ying si, faizah, melissa, Mdm Rita, Baizurah, Aisyah, poorani, Hasia, Khadija, Iffa, Jean, Zana, Celeste, Fatimah, Ruimin
and for all the lovely cards and presents!
Syahirah fr the most awesome awesome present! For making me drool over him :D hahahahah
Fatimah fr the very very lovely card! and present. Omg, i really love it :D
Yan Hong fr the huge multi-page card! and diva necklace and spending the day with me :D :D :D
Deryn fr the omg super nice chocolate that im gna buy again as soon as i have money. HAHA
Carrol fr the mug!
Jasmine fr the letter and earrings :)
Alena fr the monthly planner :D
Khadija fr the lovely postcard!
Lidiya and Sarah fr the card + cookies + choco! (sorry i just finished crying when you guys passed me the things! cldnt thank you guys properly =/ infact, i think it was nurul who was there right? hahah, cldnt rly see! heh, bad timing. Sorry yea)
Family fr the wonderful dinner + card + swensons cake!
The guides (deryn, may, khadija, lydia, sarah, kemei and who ah? cant rmb!) for throwing me a surprise! with cake and lighted candles :D and singing me a birthday song in PP KFC and ignoring my mortified face. THANK YOU GUYS. REALLY. THANK YOU
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Whoever said that change was the only constant thing must obviously be living in some bubble. Cos i know disappointment is constant too. These past 6 months have been filled with so much disappointment. I'm surprised i've made it this far without suffering a total mental breakdown.
11th jan was an emotional day for many. I had to leave the hall asap as everyone around me was either smiling so wide like there's no tmr or breaking down. And i couldn't comfort them either.
Thank you sya. Fr being there when i needed you most. Even whem i'm at lost of what to say.
On a brighter note, talking to the guides on MSN is super funny! And all our personal message wars. hahhaah. Gosh. ily guys :D khadija's the culprit fr sparking most wars huh!
Went back to school today. And stopped by to join psgm. I miss the PSLs ): and being in PSB.
And thanks jia ai, fr tolerating my nonsense and high-ness today! heheheh
from me squashing the mosquito to..."I wanna hold your hand!' HAHAHAHA (AND EH PLEASE LAH IM NOT A PERVERT).
And i'm watching 4 movies this week! weeeeeh.
and argh, why's everyone studying alrd? i haven't started revision! sheeetz.
Lydia: Amirah, you're appealing through what?
Amirah: Looks :D and then my good sense of humour
hahhahaha
TAG REPLIES
C!: blogged! and hahahah, im now older and more mature than you!!
khadija: thank you! it says happy bday amirah. hahaha :D
somebody (: : aww, thanks!
Nurul: ahahha, i heard you said i reply very slow. Which is true! Aww, why can't come fr PSGM. So sad! ):
Little rainbows standing on trees says:
amirah how can you ever like a vain sissy camwhorer!
hm, good question.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Friday, January 8, 2010
Walls were meant to be broken, not shattered
Tears were meant to fall, not shedded
Paper was meant for writing, not tearing
A heart was meant for living, not dying
A moment of weakness,
as hope tangos with the wind;
Listen to the throbbing sounds of emptiness,
to heal what's left within
I myself do not know
the answer to unleash this shield
That protects the soul and so
as the heart fights for battled breaths
i thought i was okay. i really thought i was okay
Tears were meant to fall, not shedded
Paper was meant for writing, not tearing
A heart was meant for living, not dying
A moment of weakness,
as hope tangos with the wind;
Listen to the throbbing sounds of emptiness,
to heal what's left within
I myself do not know
the answer to unleash this shield
That protects the soul and so
as the heart fights for battled breaths
i thought i was okay. i really thought i was okay
The First Cut Is The Deepest
Well, went to some of the poly open houses today with Alena the crab!
:D
Hmm, i think SP was the nicest out of them all. It was quite paiseh when the people there asked us which course we're interested in and we'd be all, "Er...". Yes, we just went fr fun.
And alena's cousin was really funny! When asked if we wanted a tour or needed any help, he said, "We're looking fr the free donuts". Gosh. Which was sort of true. But still, you should have seen the face of the girl who asked.
Quite interesting going with alena, cos in one day i was introduced to 3 different guy friends. Wow! hahahha :D
Im totally skiving tmr's madr camp meeting. With a valid reason of course.
Sigh, the total freedom that comes with the seemingly endless holiday has come to an abrupt end. My heart's already started beating faster due to the knowledge of the upcoming workload.
Helping to organise a camp isnt gonna be easy, esp when we're starting from scratch. Reminds me of Sec1 orientation more than 2 years ago.
Went cycling with Excoo on tues! It was really fun. Though my everywhere hurt after that. Haha, well i burned fats and got toned legs (or so i'd like to believe) in return. Im sorry you guys if i kept saying, "Argh, im gonna die/feel like dying!" countless times over. Many many memories, from visiting alena's moving cupboard to staring at the male cat chasing the female cat to try and coughmatecough to saying "See you later, Alligator!" when i finally finally caught up with alena only for her to overtake me seconds later. (HAHA ALENA AND JIA AI LAUGH AT THIS!)
And vina was wearing this brown shirt with the Macdonald 'M' behind which looks like an inverted '3'. And on our return journey, my eyes started playing tricks on me. Vina looked like a very yummy macdonald beef patty, which i admit was my primary motivation to keep those legs of mine moving. Oh, plus the endless words of encouragement from exco :)
And fong wa's so optimistic :D i love love exco, so sad eunice wasnt there.
On wed, went lunch with kemei and khad! Had a nice time as always :)
and argh, im pissed with school of wizardry.
Jb tmr!
TAG REPLIES
(heeh, sorry i take very long to reply one)
C! :D : HAHA, i thought you said you weren't in pain at all! Yea, my inner thighs are aching. Still, it was fun! Hahaha, i can't believe we made it there and back!! fun fun fun to the max
Nurul: omg why didnt you wake me up to say bye! I was prolly drooling yknow, so paiseh! Haha, i was looking fr you when i woke up. And okay, linked :D All the best with Psgm!
:D
Hmm, i think SP was the nicest out of them all. It was quite paiseh when the people there asked us which course we're interested in and we'd be all, "Er...". Yes, we just went fr fun.
And alena's cousin was really funny! When asked if we wanted a tour or needed any help, he said, "We're looking fr the free donuts". Gosh. Which was sort of true. But still, you should have seen the face of the girl who asked.
Quite interesting going with alena, cos in one day i was introduced to 3 different guy friends. Wow! hahahha :D
Im totally skiving tmr's madr camp meeting. With a valid reason of course.
Sigh, the total freedom that comes with the seemingly endless holiday has come to an abrupt end. My heart's already started beating faster due to the knowledge of the upcoming workload.
Helping to organise a camp isnt gonna be easy, esp when we're starting from scratch. Reminds me of Sec1 orientation more than 2 years ago.
Went cycling with Excoo on tues! It was really fun. Though my everywhere hurt after that. Haha, well i burned fats and got toned legs (or so i'd like to believe) in return. Im sorry you guys if i kept saying, "Argh, im gonna die/feel like dying!" countless times over. Many many memories, from visiting alena's moving cupboard to staring at the male cat chasing the female cat to try and coughmatecough to saying "See you later, Alligator!" when i finally finally caught up with alena only for her to overtake me seconds later. (HAHA ALENA AND JIA AI LAUGH AT THIS!)
And vina was wearing this brown shirt with the Macdonald 'M' behind which looks like an inverted '3'. And on our return journey, my eyes started playing tricks on me. Vina looked like a very yummy macdonald beef patty, which i admit was my primary motivation to keep those legs of mine moving. Oh, plus the endless words of encouragement from exco :)
And fong wa's so optimistic :D i love love exco, so sad eunice wasnt there.
On wed, went lunch with kemei and khad! Had a nice time as always :)
and argh, im pissed with school of wizardry.
Jb tmr!
TAG REPLIES
(heeh, sorry i take very long to reply one)
C! :D : HAHA, i thought you said you weren't in pain at all! Yea, my inner thighs are aching. Still, it was fun! Hahaha, i can't believe we made it there and back!! fun fun fun to the max
Nurul: omg why didnt you wake me up to say bye! I was prolly drooling yknow, so paiseh! Haha, i was looking fr you when i woke up. And okay, linked :D All the best with Psgm!
Sunday, January 3, 2010
I'm quite lazy to finish up my 2009 post!
I came across something so sad on the internet just now. );
It's like someone writing a story of my life.
Not that it's sad or anything.
Prom was alright :) everyone was so GLAM. Gosh.
It's a pretty small world huh?
Next week is pretty packed! just the way i like it.
TAG REPLIES
nellie: haha, told you alrd ;)
nurul: thanks fr tagging :D hehe yes i rmb you! And you're alena's close friend right? She talks about you quite a bit! And gosh so malu. I might have been drooling when you said bye in the bus! All the best with the school year ahead :)
I came across something so sad on the internet just now. );
It's like someone writing a story of my life.
Not that it's sad or anything.
Prom was alright :) everyone was so GLAM. Gosh.
It's a pretty small world huh?
Next week is pretty packed! just the way i like it.
TAG REPLIES
nellie: haha, told you alrd ;)
nurul: thanks fr tagging :D hehe yes i rmb you! And you're alena's close friend right? She talks about you quite a bit! And gosh so malu. I might have been drooling when you said bye in the bus! All the best with the school year ahead :)
Friday, January 1, 2010
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