Thursday, April 30, 2009

I'm not emo!

Really! REALLY!

My blog posts have been sad?
A huge Sorry to all those who've been concerned about me.
Really, i didn't mean to worry you guys!

38.5 degrees C now
):
doc says it'd go up to 39+
I had a hard time swallowing the huge pink muscle-relaxant pills, and the capsule of a pill called Mr. Antibiotics.

My meds are supposed to make me drowsy over the weekend.
Prelims on Monday how?

Next post will be happy, i promise!

(as you can see, this post consists of random gibberish that my brain comes up with when i'm supposedly half-drowsy)

Saturday, April 25, 2009

I shall believe





I want to blog about many things. Yet, the words don't seem right.

I'm sorry i made some of you worried on friday. I'm okay now :)



sometimes we have to skimp on whatver hope we have left

Other times we bask in the perfection of the moment

Happiness is a ransom. (most times)

Sunday, April 19, 2009

I will not be emo anymore
YUP :D

No worries!
Busy busy week):
Can't wait fr track finals! wooh, i think this would be the 3rd time i'm going fr track finals.
And i wonder if i'll meet any friends there.
Anyway,

GOO CEDAR :D


Tag Replies
Simin: Yes I MET DAVID ARCHULETA!! HAHA :D :D :D and yea gosh, miss you dear):
Simone: Hellooo :)
Kemei: Hello KEMEI :D
Khadija: HAHA BOTH OF you camwhore laaah (oh, plus may now?)
Lydia: YEA who's the genius who introduced the war-cry game? :D
huiling: yes yess i was so lucky :D sigh!

It

I absolutely hated it
I had to touch it's hands

I hate it's voice
I hate it's smell
I hate him it

It intruded my sanctuary tonight
The dread at seeing it again
was indescribable

Maybe i shouldn't judge
But how can i help it?
I shouldn't hate
I shouldn't

Damn it.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I sat in complete darkness

No thoughts.
No emotions
No, not today

There's a void within me
I think i know what can fix it
Yet that's not the answer
Not today

Empty,
All Blank.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Expect the Unexpected - NCO 09

I filed every single piece of ws/note/test today for every single subject.
I cleared rubbish and unuseful things from my room today
It took me 3 hours.
I feel accomplished


:)

NCO was true to it's theme - unexpected. Maybe its my fault for suggesting the theme and things happening because of the theme? maybe maybe..):

It was our last camp together as Sec4s ):
It didn't really feel like a camp )):


But nevertheless, you guys never fail to make me smile
:D

and hahaha i shall tell everyone a secret now


KHADIJA
IS
A
......
......

CAMWHORE Very photogenic person


hahah :D :D

Sec3s who might happen to read this (but i doubt so),
You guys really showed your perseverance throughout the entire camp.
We're really proud of every single one of you :D

annnndd

the guides blog has scouts tagging! how amusing :)
First was the Hwachong ppl from chingay now its a vs scout who's a fellow guide's brother.
I find this very uh..interesting somehow!


I do not want to go to school tomorrowwwww...
I'm still tired):
Sometimes i wish the weekends were 3 days instd of only two


TAG REPLIES
C! :D : HAHAHA yes! HOHO i'll tell you the real deal in person! ^^
fatimah: Yay you finally tagged :D OMG you're soooo gna get it from me tomorrow. I TRUSTED YOU WITH MY SECRET!
simone: ahah yes i know! you told me when we went home together the other day! haha, and hello :D
khad: pfft, you love me more than your wallet la! i know it, i can see it in your eyes :)
ash: hahaha no, i will not remove it! :D you look nice in make-up! and you're the camera guy cos you're always the one with the camera luhh.
YANHONG: okay tauge:)

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Cos' time is not precious

100 truths


1. last beverage→ Water
2. last phone call→ Mum.
3. last text message→ Nasuha
4. last song you listened to→ FM static - tonight
5. last time you cried→ Reading a thousand splendid suns :)

SIX
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice → no.
7. been cheated on → No
8. kissed someone & regretted it→ No
9. lost someone special? → yeah
10. been depressed? → Yup
11. been drunk and threw up? → Nope

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:Blue, white, uhh rainbow?

THIS YEAR(2009) HAVE YOU:
13. Made new friends → Yess!
14. Fallen out of love → heh yeah
15. Laughed until you cried → eh no
16. Met someone who changed you → no
17. Found out who your true friends were →Sort of
18. Found out someone was talking about you→ No
19. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ haha no!

20. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life?→ 80% of them
21. How many kids do you want to have→ i dont wanna go thru labour tho ):
22. Do you have any pets → Died, yes.
23. Do you want to change your name→ Used to.
24. What did you do for your last birthday? → Many awesome things with many awesome ppl :D
25. what time did you wake up today → 5.57am
26. What were you doing at midnight last night → Smashing Cake at Rabia's face :D :D
27. Name something you CANNOT wait for → david archuleta!
28. Last time you saw your father→ 2 hours ago
29. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? → Many things, being a better person
30. What are you listening to right now → the noisy fan
31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → hahaha NOPE
32. What's getting on your nerves right now? →that i'm not studying
33. Most visited webpage → facebook,google, my blog.
34. Whats your real name → Nur Amirah (my parents like to google my full name 0.o)
35. Nicknames→ argh, dont wanna talk about this!
36. Relationship Status → single
37. Zodiac sign → Capricon
38. Male or female or transgender? → the second.
39. Elementary School? → Gsps
40. Middle School → Cedar Girls'
41. High school → ? (ehh but high sch supposedly equivalent to sec right? :O)
42. Hair color → Blackish black
43. Long or short → Long. but with an urgh haircut
44. Height → 1XX cm
45. Do you have a crush on someone? → yesss :) many many including prev post!
46. What do you like about yourself? → the ability to pretend there's no such things as problems :) and making my friends laugh!
47. Piercings → ears
48. Tattoos → None
49. Righty or lefty → Righty!

FIRSTS :
50. First surgery → none!
51. First piercing → when i was 12 i think
52. First best friends → Arshad and mardhiah from kindergarten! HAHAH I RMB OMG
53. First sport you joined → Swimming when i was 4?
54. First pet→ Goldie the Goldfish
55. First vacation→ penang
56. First concert→ ? hmmm cant rmb
57. First crush→ primary two (haha omg right!)

RIGHT NOW:
58. Eating → Nothing.
59. Drinking→ Nothing.
60. Listening to → nothing
61. Waiting for → Sleep.

YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids → i should think so
59. Want to get married → yes
60. Careers in mind -> road sweeper outside VJ! (inside joke)

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
68. Lips or eyes → Lips? Eyes abit intimidating to look at luh
69. Hugs or kisses → Hugs.
70. Shorter or taller → Taller, gosh
71. Older or Younger → Older
72. Romantic or spontaneous → can i have both? hahaha :D
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → must have 12-packs. kidding!
74. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive i guess.
75. Hook-up or relationship → i'm not the hook-up type!
77. Trouble maker or hesitant → uhhh neither?

HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → Nope no
79. Drank hard liquor → No.
80. Lost glasses/contacts → yess.
81. Sex on first date → No.
82. Broken someone's heart → i dont know but i don't think so
83. Had your own heart broken → yea
85. Been arrested → No.
86. Turned someone down → i think?
87. Cried when someone died → yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl→ Heh no.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → Yes!
90. Miracles → Sadly, no.
91. Love at first sight → No);
92. Heaven → Yes.
93. Santa Clause → Nope
95. Kiss on the first date? → no
96. Angels → yea

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → yes yes yes
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → No no no.
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → maybe some are not-so-truths :/