So what if i'm different?

Maybe i shouldn't complain
Maybe i should be thankful
But you make it so difficult

So what if i'm different,
i don't know the names of all the hip brands
I don't own expensive branded things
I don't know where to get labled blouses or bags
So what?

So what if i'm different,
i dont like to be loud and show-off
i don't like to pose in front of the camera 24/7
i don't like to hang out late nights just for the sake of it
So what?

So what if i'm different,
i don't know the names of all the latest songs
i don't have 300 over songs in my phone
i don't have 6 boyfriends a year
i don't have friends who smoke and drink
So what?

i don't hang out at Singapore River
i don't have friends who work at Zouk
i don't kiss guys
i don't have a boyfriend
So what?

So what if i'm different,
i want to get good grades
i want a future
i'm a nerd/no-lifer
So what?

Stop demeaning and devalueing me.

Crash Course in Polite Conversation

Much of the blaming, spin and self-righteousness that have made us feel so bad about ourselves - often bad enough to give in to pressure - is not valid. It's fear-based. Anxiety-based. Insecurity-based.

I like like this picture :D


Here comes my hopefully-weekly updates!

Monday
First day of Cedar's Got Talent Audtions. Was blown away countless of times. Hahaha, the fact that students were the judges did not help in calming down the contestants at all.

Tuesday
First session of PSGM! Was reeeeally upset when i was re-allocated to 1H instead of my orientation class 1M..but ohwell ); Had fun anyways. It was also the second day of judging.
After PSGM, went to judge for about an hour and catching up with C before going for CHINGAY

Stuffed our bags with snacks (incase the refreshments weren't up to standard. haha!) and up the bus we go. When we arrived, we were like the only girls school there? the whole area was filled with guys. But that didn't last too long
Went inside some room to practice our song. We were part of the HEART CONTINGENT. and will be behind float 3. So we had to practice the song we'd be singing Reach out for the skies? the sclub one, not taufik.

And the vocal coach is omg-funny la! his vocal trainings were uhmmm.... o.0

did that fr over an hour, before going out to practice it on the real route. Had fun fun fun :D
since well the guides were there.

We reached kallang mrt at 9.30 pm? dismissed us almost an hr late.

Reached home around 10,
didnt do homework cos i fell asleep =/

Wednesday
Had guides. Was i/c for PVC tent and yea not bad, quite fun :]
but we'll be doing pvc again next week i think, with a diff group.

thursday
eh can't rmb

friday
CNY celebrations!
The lion dance troupe came again. The same one. With the same routine. With the same lion, and the same person wearing a "mask" of a bald man, with a fan acting cute but coming off as scary (to me). But other than that, the celebrations were pretty cool
:D

tauge told me her sch had an orange-peeling contest! :o

Went out with mar and michael to get our swensens birthday treat. Had the sticky chewy ice-cream thing.
Thank thank thank you Michael!
:D

and sorry mar, left you at POP-ular

-.-"

Left early to meet tauge to get my present.

THANK THANK THANK YOUUUUU

for the lovely gift

and and and

the GORGEOUS and HUMUNGOUS card

and making sure the gift fits

and for sacrificing your tuition time

read the card on the bus, almost cried okay!

Thanks fr putting so much effort in to it, and yes will take your advice seriously about that. No more distractions. Will focus on my studies.
love love you(;

THE END.

and

a

very

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all chinese!

thanks hock fr wishing me too :]

Invest!

Mar, Hock Xiang, sorry-forgot-your-name(!) Zi yang, Michael,sorry-forgot-your-name-too(!)

Ryan

Yay :D

(Happy michael?)

and now months later!

(:

hahaha

I don't know how to trust

I don't appreciate being your personal doormat


OKAY, updates of Chingay and others when the weekends arrive!

KHADIJA SHAFIQ,

Please don't worry!

I'm 100% fine.
Okay, SIR? :)

(you're so sweet la, can't stand you!)

nice song! am in love with it(;


David Archuleta
A Little Too Not Over You

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else

It is for the best
I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Memories suppose to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off let it go
Didn't think it would be this hard
Should be strong, moving on

But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back
Yeah

Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, ohhh.

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind meI'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you

Not over you, ooh.

The 7 Habits Of Highly Successful People

1. Make Money
2. Make some more money
3. Make lots of money
4. Make even more money
5. Keep making money
6. Don't stop making money
7. Repeat steps 1-6


hahahah ;) Saw the above outside a laksa stall. Almost burst out laughing, but then tried to stifle it cos then what would the laksa lady think of me? Some loon. (and prolly the long queue of laksa buyers behind me too)
But she purposely paste smtg like that up!

Cannot blog as often anymore. Can't find the time to do so..);


Tag Replies

C! :D: Aww, sometime soon then kay!
nellie: Yes laah haha you're cool :D and thanks fr the birthday wish. I'm soo gna beat you next year tho.
sarah: alamak...SLOW. Heeehh and pls update!
C! :D : YES there's a shop named amirah! Why so hard to believe eh?!
deryn: it's okay dear, i still love you :D
YANHONG: Thanks thanks (: and the post was lovely. Very touching! and no it's not chicken feet! Must work very hard, and you better work hard too wokay
Mardhiyyah! : yay yes you're first on my blog! I love love you plenty too <3>
PNGLIN: 2009's hectic!
YANHONG: You're welcome!
Si Min: ahahahah okay! and can i don't do the quiz? ahahah lazy lazy
C! :D: YES OMG YES. that call was childish. See where it lead us to? but that day was very exhilarating right right? and i'll rmb it fr a long long time.

Happy 16th Birthday

This year's birthday was too beautiful. The best i've ever had.
(;

The days leading up to my birthday were wonderful too. Got to spend it with lovely people like e and the guides!

I wanna blog everything out, so that in years to come i can look back and reflect on how i had such a sweet 16.

Hmm, okay shall blog abt friday first, the eve of my birthday.
Well after guides, i was feeling reeally hungry since i didnt have lunch (due to physics diagnostics). So yea, followed Khad and Yik Heng to get some things to eat. So a few of us sat and ate together. Hahah, i thot it was kinda weird since those who ate with me were usually the ones who'd be first to leave after guides. They were the DISTRACTION people =.= HAHAHA
Anyway, i had to wait for deryn cos she wanted to have a meeting with me regarding CGT (if not i wld have gone home!)

Then, may came and asked me to follow her go toilet. Hahha, a weird request since she usually goes to toilets alone? And Yi Bei tagged along. Once we reached the first floor toilet, they both decided they want to go 2nd floor toilet instd..so i'm like 0.o and went along. Then when we reached the 2nd floor, they didnt want to go toilet anymore! And instead wanted to say bye to grace. So we stood there facing the side foyer, staring down in silence...

Then then then, i got a call from Damia saying to hurry to first floor cos apparently there's a mtg! Hahaha! So three of us went back down. They stopped me outside GO, i think? took out my tie and blindfolded me. And i was uh escorted to behind the canteen?

AND ohman i was so shocked at the sight. I was so moved. If only i had a picture of what i saw.
There was this huge sign saying "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" (the first pic above), the guides standing on the benches and Sarah holding a lighted cake. And someone holding a huge colourful windmill? HAHAHA. Goodness was so shocked (in a good way). I wanted to cry, i really did but somehow my tear ducts weren't functioning. =/

(Earlier in the day Mdm Audra showed us a snippet from Happy Feet and i almost so nearly cried, if the papa penguin hadn't suddenly started dancing when he was suffering from some penguin depression 2 seconds before that) See, i can cry when it comes to animated birds dancing but not when i really want to. HAHAHA

Went to the canteen to cut the cake, and instead Kena ORANGE SPRAYED by maytavee.
OMG LA. Hahahah :] and then lydia tan just haaaad to smudge my face with cake.

Was smiling the whole way home. Didn't care that the whole MRT was staring at a girl with orange bits in her extremely messy hair, holding a huge colourful windmill.

I didn't manage to stay up till midnight. Knocked out abt 10 plus. Missed the influx of messages and calls. Haha, was pleasantly surprised when i woke up at 3 to find missed calls and wonderful messages.

Today, i spent my birthday with my dearest beloved family. Went to AMIRAH'S Grill.
Hohoho ^^

And my bro purposely said out loud to the owner, "today's my sister Amirah's birthday".
AND i think the owner has the same name as me? So for dessert, i got an extra cheesecake plus one scoop of ice cream with a candle
:D

SHALL pic-blog now

The Guides! THANK YOU GUYS, <33>

AND THANK YOU
for all the lovely birthday wishes via personally, sms, calls, facebook, msn
:D

I shall make a list of all those who wished me!

Birthday wishes (in chrolonogical order) :
Abang Azmi(who claimed he patted my head and wished me while i was asleep..) Sherilyn Tan, Fatimah, Mardhiyyah, Huda, Mum, Lydia, Bibik, Dad, Damia, Deryn, Zana, E, Yan Hong, Charlene, Syahirah, Eunice TMG, Carrol, Ping Hao, Debra, Afiqah, Jane, Beatrice Yeo, Kathy, Abang Azhar

Via Facebook (abit hard to put the order of yr birthday wish!)
Anger, Jerald, Sze Wing, Kathy, Joy Priya, Rafiyat, Hock Xiang, Diana, Yan Ru, Xin Yi, Ryan, Wing Hay

Early birthday wishes
Joy P, Huda, Jia Xuan, Carrol, Huiling, Jasmine Ang, Felicia, Melissa Lim, Jia Ai, Atiqah


SPECIAL THANKS TO....
GUIDES - Yik Heng, Khadija, Alisius, Nicole, Genevieve, Sarah, Damia, Yi Bei, Kemei, Lydia, May, Beatrice, Clarissa, Amanda, Fang Wei, Ping Hao, Deryn, Melissa
For planning the whole thing

Those who stayed up especially till midnight just to wish me and fighting for first place(HAHAH) - Abang, Sherilyn, Fatimah, Mardhiyyah(sry babe! next year can try again ;) , Huda

Those who gave me presents and cards!

Yan Hong - for the lovely blog post

C! - For the long message. Thank you, i felt so appreciated :D

Deryn - who was damn sad cos this year she didnt get to wish me at midnight. And for being the last one to wish me (since she cldnt be the first) hahaha

My family for dinner, cake, the card and two expensive looking bags

:D :D :D :D

<33

I'm an idealist


[edit]

Went for evening jog just now. I just found out that the park behind my house has a 2.5km connector to ECP. Oh, so cool :] shall try it one day, but i don't think i'd be able to make it back =/


Why does it all seem so trite?
So dull and repeated.


i should start blogging less, no?
hur);

HAPPY HAPPY VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAN HONG!

Wahh 16 ready ah!
Hahaha :)

(sry fr the unglam photo! hohoho ^^)

To Thank Those Around You

Thank you Siti Mardhiyyah!
For the baking me a lovely advanced birthday present :D
Am devouring it slowly day by day.

2008

2008 was truly a life-pivoting year. Things changed so drastically. Life got so hectic with school work, CCA, leadership responsibilities, personal matters, social obligations. etc.
But it's one of thsoe years that i'll remember for a long long time. What with stepping up and assuming all sorts of responsibilities.

Friendships were formed from HwaChong SLC, TJC convention, rgs pss, friends of friends
Got to know many cool people like peisi, danial, nick yeo, ashri, hock xiang, alvin, michael etc.

Friendships grew stronger, Friendships grew weaker.
Hi-Bye friends became really close friends, and really close friends became Hi-Bye Friends
Some friendships didn't change, of which i thank god for.

I've grown this year. To tolerate, to understand, to accept.

On a higher note, here is a list of people i'd really like to thank for making 2008 a memorable year fr me. Hahah, don't need to read the parts which are not yours!

Sya

Thank you for being the one constant thing in my life. You never fail to listen to me whenever i need a listening ear even if it's after midnight or 6plus in the bus to school or when you yourself are going through a hard time, you never fail to understand what i'm going through and helping me through all my problems, you never fail to make me happy again :D

Thank you for staying you!

C!
yoohooo hello ;] this year really made us closer, don't you think? rmb the time we were at pp macs right before calling *******. HAHAH, we were so high la. Thank you for almost always being so happy and cheerful and never failing to make me laugh like crazy along with you. Thank you for always beetching with me about ******. And for accompanying me all the time, whether it's lunch/study/movie or repair a camera. Thank you fr being such a wonderful friend and always sharing with me what's happening with you :D

E
haha, surprised to see your name here? hee :D i think i wrote smtg like this in your birthday card, right? but nvm, shall do it once more. Thank thank you for always being just an sms away, for advising me when i ask for it, for knocking some sense in me sometimes, for not feeding my ego and forever teasing/making fun of me =/ thank you for being such a refreshing person (haha, you may not know that!) Yeaa, so thank you for especially always being there this year :D thanks fr all the long msn convos/smses/calls/lunch dates. :D :D (yes, you're like one of my best friends too)

tauge
I know we only starting meeting up again this hols, but it feels like we haven't been apart at all. Thank you for being so high and funny and you :D and making hanging out with you so fun, it makes me forget reality and all the probs. For making me still feel close to you, so yay ;]

Sarah
Hahah my piggy friend! this year not so piggy ready how come!! hurrrr );
Thank you for being a wonderful friend, who's always thinking of others. For all your hugs, butt smacks and smiles. Remember the time after pioner and we went back and fro tanah merah station, going up the escalator and back down countless times? just cos we had so much to say?
I love you babe :D

Deryn
Even though we may no longer be in the same class, im thankful i still have you as a friend :]
thank you for always talking sense into me, for always believing that i can do better in everything. Even if i don't confide in you as much, i still love you and will always be here dear!

Mar
SLC and michael kinda brought us closer huh? :D thank you for being a close friend to me this year. For being so down-to-earth yet super high and nice all the time :D thank you for trusting me with your secrets, it means alot. STUDY HARD FOR O'S WOKAY! anytime you need someone, you know who to look for.

fatimah
My dearest staff sgt! Haha, i doubt you read my blog bt ohwell. THANK YOU for being my classmate this year. I dont know how else i could have survived this year. Thank you for always gossiping with me about almost everything. and for being so crazy and such a neat freak! eeyer can't stand you lah. Hahah :]

bih yau
It's really great getting to know you this year. Thank you for always listening to me rant even if it's the same topic over and over again, for being my insomnia-buddy when i can't got to sleep at nights, for being an awesome friend :D i'm glad this friendship was found

Eunice TMG
Yo, thank you for all the times you listened to me talk about ahemahem. Hahah, and for being so fun and random. Singing with me songs like the JUNU song and make 23 bus rides to school or home fun :D

Khadija & Kemei
The two guide mates i've gotten much closer to this year. THANK YOU you two for being such cutiepies and comics. Hanging out with you guys never fails to turn out the best :D

PSB EXCO
Jiaai, Vina, EuniceThe, Fong Wa, Alena
Thank you for being an amazing exco
who makes working with so enjoyable
<3


OKAY
my hands are aching now.
Shall update about orientation soon :D

School starts tmr! garh.
Omigod, i nearly died of joy when fatimah told me that the school website stated that we only needed to bring notebook, pencil case and a story book tmr. hohooho, no lessons? WOOSH :D