School's tomorrow, results too.
):

The last two days have been the least productive days ever. Talked on the phone for hours yestrday :) hahaha, at least 3 hours i think.

26th july (which is exactly 3 months from first paper) would mark my final day using the computer. Shall count the days till then );

Argh, roddick could have won! It's okay, Roddick! (and his fans). He's improved so so much.
Oh well.

And i can't wait to watch HP! Poor Rupert Grint(ron weasley), with the whole H1N1 thing):
Hahah, i'm always reminded of khadija and our harry potter game whenever i hear anything related to harry potter. :D

I hate how my friends end up hurt in relationships. You never leave one unscathed. Is it an inevitable thing?


yibei: haha, yea wasn't feeling well. SORRY! had fever): but i hope you guys enjoyed it! :D :D





Watch this - very cool :)

A Tale As Old As Time

Shan’t

I shan’t build hopes that are essentially hopeless

I shan’t cry tears cos’ there’s none to cry about

I shan’t hurt as the hurting’s done

I shan’t, I just

Can't

I can’t light no more of your darkness

I can’t numb the pain that’s no longer there

I can’t hold on when you’ve let go

I can’t, I just

Won’t

I won’t put myself through the torment that’s you.

I won’t try and bring down the walls that can’t come down

I won’t breathe promises that’ll morph into lies

*******************************************************

If only we could mitigate the severity of it all

I marvel at the human race, the complexity of the human mind.

It’s intermittent interest.

How is it possible?

Girl A: “Girl B’s my best friend, but I simply can’t stand her! She thinks her father owns this country. Seriously! AND, she never stops talking bad about simply everyone! Can you believe the nerve of her? I’m not surprised if she talks about me behind my back. I know I would never speak lowly or talk about my close friends behind their backs”

A monstrous consequence, I reckon.

*This post comprises of extremely random thoughts, expressed in odd forms, that have not much relevance to my life. (probably 1am gibberish)

Till there's no more shades of grey;

i think beaunice took this shot? Haha, for photography badge 2 years back if i'm not wrong!
Aw, i miss my patrol ):

and you pray for belief

I applaud people whom i'm not close to, yet still have the guts to talk to me about random petty stuff when my MSN status is BUSY. Really.

And i especially applaud people who actually bother to keep in contact with mere acquaintances (no sarcasm this time)

2 more days to school

): ):

My stomach felt pretty awful today. The result of eating too much durian. Dad went all the way to aljuneid to buy durian cos those at bedok weren't good enough apparently.

-.-"

Learned something interesting just now, while eating durian with the whole fam.

Today's durian was especially especially yummy, btw. Haha, sidetracking! ANYWAY, i was only on my 3rd piece i think. And i realised there were already so many durian seeds in the red plastic bag we throw all the remains and durian shells in. And, everyone was like licking their durian at super ultrafast speed. I mean i was only on my 3rd piece, and everyone else was already on their 5th or 6th

o.0

Amirah: EH! Why are you all eating so fast?! Slow down!

Bro: It's the art of eating durian. Eat it quick - so you can eat more, before it finishes.

*Rest of family looks at Amirah as though it's the most obvious thing in the world - the art of eating durian*

=.=

=.=

=.=

And alvin's school so poor thing): he was telling me that during recess, they can only eat with their classmates as the school's afraid that if one person gets H1N1, they'd have to quarantine the whole cohort. Also, all classes requiring them to move around are cancelled. So, they are only allowed in the canteen and classroom. Minimising damage i know, but it's still so sad):

1003 cases, and counting.

Go awwaaaay H1N1.

(please, please)

Tag Replies

deryn: hey derynrynryn :)

YANHONG: hahahahhaha, YES I DID! OMG SAME PHONE! :D :D :D you got pink!??! I thought you hated pink!

nellie: Yea, hey changed-phone LG-using buddy! :D

Mar: Yea, i'm popular. :D :D (you can keep telling me that, i don't think i'll ever get tired of hearing it. Hohohoho)

Jia Ai: Whaat stalker? Grr. And heh, patience! You'll get a new phone soon too :)

I have such rotten luck. I'm gonna go pull my hair out now.

(i guess this is what i get for) Wishful Thinking

To numb the pain only makes it worse when you finally feel it

I just choked on panadol =/

I guess I was never good at dealing with disappointment. Even when it's not a foreign feeling to me. Even when i feel it practically everyday. Some days are especially tough, when the whole day is just filled with...

Disappointment.

On a brighter note,

today was spent trying to make the people i love happier. Tho i don't think it was very successful. I didn't go for the 2/O outing in the end ): doesn't mean i miss you guys any less!

Watched transformers at century square. Didn't understand the first fifteen minutes i think =/ I was like huh what's decaptagon. AND HUH what's an optimus prime? Hahahaha
But, it was a really nice show :)
And i didn't know there's a Shop 'N' Save in Century square! Gosh, after living in the east my whole life.

I really don't get Shakespeare. The language he uses i mean. Since i'm taking Lit elect and not pure lit, that's perfectly alright :D hahaha, i mean i just can't appreciate the 'thou's, 'hath's and 'doth's. (no offence to shakespeare fans, i mean his plays are really quite nice)

IFFF i had a Shakespeare-spouting boyfriend, who recites shakespeare to me often. I think i'd have to slap him. Okay lah, maybe not a hard slap just a very gentle one. Hahahaa.

Changing topic, I've been told by several people that I'm shy. =/
Hm, it may be lack of courage rather than uh..shy? Haha
I guess i've always lacked courage, from a really young age. I remeber my parents used to bring me to Julia Gabriel Classes where we'd recite poems and do drama plays to encourage small kids to come out of their shells. So at the start of every session we'd sit in a circle, and the teacher would go round the circle asking anyone if they have any news to share. I'd always just shake my head and say "no news". Even if i did have something to say, cos i was uncomfortable with having the whole circle's attention focused on me. Haha, that's not all. We'd have this poem-reading sessions where everyone would be assigned two lines in a poem. Whenever my turn was nearing, my heart would start beating like crazy.
=.=
I stopped going there when I was 7, too stressful. Hahha :)

The absence of courage has constantly been my downfall. I still remember one of my first battles against courage (well, the lack of it). I was P1 and i had this close friend whom i stuck to a lot. She had a tendancy to..hit me. In a joking manner, but it stung like crazy everytime. My whole skin would blotch up and stay red the whole day. She just..likes to hit people me. There were many days where i'd try to tell her to stop it and shove off, but the words just wouldn't leave my mouth (lack of courage, you see). Haha, finally managed to muster enough courage to speak those words many many days later, telling her to stop not shove off.

Hahah :D

AND CONGRATS TO MELISSA!
For winning a bronze medal for Spore in AYG!
:D

In A Negative Fashion

A teenager's dream is on the sea

Ahh, the boy's so cute. :) right?

The day started out great. Ustad Azman (one of my religious teachers) finally came for class. He makes lessons really funny with all his stupid lame jokes! Hahaha :) and he's really insightful too. Atiqah and I couldn't stop laughing our esses of!

And a friend told me today that she trusted/trusts me 100%

Thank you, I really appreciate it :D

Went to TM straight after that (was quite scared i'd contract H1N1 =/)

for bro to replace his faulty SIM card

and

WE ENDED BUYING PHONES :D :D

Cos both my bro and i's contract would be ending soon so we could renew it. And as usual, we got the same phone model again. He chose white, and i black (prev it was the opposite). HAHA, it's just that we tend to spoil chargers/lose headphones very easily and so with same models, we can kope from the other sibling.

and and and its touch screen! i've always wanted a touchscreen phone. HOHO ^^

My mum was renewing her contract too, but she wanted to use her current phone. So she got a phone for dad instead (cheaper phones when renewing contract you see). And i was telling my dad over the phone about the touch screen i just got. He was reluctant, but when i said it costs $48 (with contract) and original price is $498..he was immediately like, " Okay BOLEH BOLEH!" hahahahahha :) typical kiasu cheapo sporeans

So we ended up with 3 phones with the same model...

And very surprisingly (haha, not), the model came in 3 diff colours - Black, white and Baby Pink. And guess what colour my brother initially wanted =.=

Had to talk him out of it.

He's gonna start uni soon, and the course he'll be in is filled with serious people who i don't think would be able to appreciate things like baby-pink touchscreen phones on a guy =.=

And he was trying to convince mum to get the pink one for dad, so he can switch with dad once in awhile. Gosh, dad will get a heart attack lah.

So we went home with 2 black phones, and one white. So now, i have the exact same phone as my dad. My only fear is that he'll say he accidentally read my messages cos he had mistaken my phone for his.

-.-"

I still rly love my old phone, sentimental value hur.

Haha, sorry michael! We're no longer same-phone buddies :D

I can't wait for 2/0 outing! wooh :) i really miss the bunch! I think i am what i am today partly because of 2/O.

Tag Replies

Passerby: Thanks :) but argh, i know i didn't do well. ): BUT THANK YOU ANYWAY.

PNGLIN: Hey! Awww yea, i miss you guys and you too PL! Was it fun? :) And must invite me to next outing kay :D How were the rest? All grown-up i bet!

Jia Ai and Mar: Don't worry guys. No need to get all jealous, i'm the popular one ;)

'You deserve better.'

Are you guys sure? I guess i can't help but doubt that.

But i finally grasp it all today.

What you guys were trying to say.

And i blame myself solely

For letting it get this way.

PRELIMS ARE OVER!

i've only had 20 hours of sleep in 5 nights. A miracle i survived this week!




tag replies:

sya: HEY, yep i had fun too! And you finally tagged!! :D :D
Random Cedarian: Hey, thank youu!
C! :D: Hahah yea she felt so awkward! Spent it with mar and another friend :)