I shouldn't be feeling the way i feel
I don't know how long i can hold on
I don't know how long i can keep pretending
I don't know how long i can keep it all in (tho isn't it getting a tad obvious?)

It sickens me knowing the power you have over me
It sickens me knowing that it's all i can think about every night before sleep
It sickens me knowing i'm vulnerable and weak

It's inevitable the way your face haunts me in every single dream
It's inevitable the way i wake up in the middle of the night with you fresh in my mind
It's inevitable that my first and last thoughts of the day are of you

You don't deserve it, i swear


Haha, sorry to my dear readers who don't understand what gibberish i'm talking about. Ignore all of it, nothing important. Random stuff, may not be referring to anyone.
(:

today was the sunflower outing :]
met alisius outside 7-eleven at 0845, took 31 to parkway. Shopped fr samantha's card and cake. Everything was still closed laah. Met the rest at macs before going to ECP. Sat at a shelter, and the three of us chatted with Shi han while the rest went to the beach and played in the water.
Then we just ate the cake and old chang kee and just chatted.
Went to Gelare as some wanted to eat ice cream.

Then went home and SLEPPTT.

Oh, and i finally created a facebook acct! I'm still pretty noob about it tho. But ohmg it's so cool can. Hahahah :)

I need to motivate myself to be a hardcore mugger.
I'm distracted by so many distractions!

And i'm missing so many people right now too
):

and i no longer know what to do.

There’s this hollowness that won’t go away.
Why do we like to hurt?

No more sad amirah.

Just finished 20 times a lady by Karyn Bosnak.
It's a really funny romance novel.
(:

and ohmg my mum just told me she googled my full name and found someone else with my exact full name. Except she lives in malaysia. And she's married. And has kids.

HMMM, i think my mom's trying to find my blog! (tho she claims she googled my name cos' she's simply curious)

*gives suspicious look*

o.0

The Search For Something More

My mind and heart have not yet lost a friend
Even though my senses are bereft,
For you remain the witness of my soul.

C wants me to update about farewell...but i don't feel like it. Heh ooops =/
Hmm, have been rotting at home doing some homework, studying fr diagnostics, reading novels and playing kiddy online games :D
And i think i've gained weight. Oh noooo.):

I'm sorry to those who've mentioned that I seem sad lately. Or to those who've said I don't seem as happy this year as i was last. I'll try to be happier yeaa.
:D :D :D

Okay jokes i found on the net

Why was the tomato blushing?
................
...............

Because he saw the salad dressing

=.=

What do you call a dear with no eyes?
.........
........

No idear! (No eye-deer)

Hahahahaha. Gettit?
:]

Tag Repliess
C! :D : Yea, oh noooooo. The blog suffered a quick death): It's okay we shall spread the word when sch reopens kay? :) or maybe during sec1 regist or smtg! and HAHA yes i'm sugar sweet (you are too!)

sya: Yes dear, can't wait! And aye aye ma'am i'm all yours :]

stamford/raffles: You're stamford and I'm Raffles.....I THINK! Ohmg so long since i last talked to you and i still rmb the racist joke your father made out of the prawns your mum cooked. Rmb or not? Haha(:

Mar: Thanks babe! Haha, sry i left the blog to die. And yes yes will cheer up!

gen: No prob :) glad you liked it!

Lydia: Oh man, i'm having camp blues and i reeeally miss our ahem*inside jokes*ahem. HAHAH and all the times you embarressed yrself. Wahaha :D


I was reading your letters to me. It's amazing how one can change so drastically in a matter of two years. You used to complain people don't smile often enough. Now, you don't smile anymore.
I smiled like a loon reading your letters, there's an air of innocence and childishness to it.
I can't recall the last time I was that happy.

I'm sorry i have to move on, and leave you behind. I had to let go of the pain.
Thank you by fr getting me a gift from china!
:)

The sea changes colour but the sea does not change.

PSLs, WE HAVE A BLOG!

CLICK HERE

PLS TAG, LINK and KEEP IT ALIVE!
Spread the word people

:D

Life In a Glass House

I don't wanna be here,

if you're gonna be there

I miss alot of things right now.

I miss lower sec

I miss kindergarten

I miss watching pokemon, sakura, bob the builder

I miss ilhan. It's been over a month since i got to hold him. ): I'm scared he'd outgrow his cuteness.

I miss hanging out with my cousins in msia like when we were little

I miss times where i could talk hours on the phone with friends just cos' we're bored (now we're too busy)

I miss Shephard pie

I miss tang house's hor fun

I miss haagen daz (sp?)

I miss being in sabah and brunei with my fellow guides.
and i miss those long bus rides and rooming with the 3 most awesome people.
and i wonder how the brownies are doing!
Thus, just felt like uploading some pics.
(:

Brunei Guides!

Everyone's little favourite - alwany!

At Changi Airport - before departure

Coastal area outside our Resort

River Cruise - spotted fireflies only and no crocodiles!

Ohmygoshness - the nicest beef soup ever.

And great company of course.

(:

Mt. Kinabalu!

the nose blowing flute

at the longhouse

the leaves we were supposed to use as plates fr our meal initially

at the stream with the cleanest and cool water. Everyone's prawn catching

the lady there was so nice. Taught me how to remove the rubberband from the complicated wooden structure (that means in their culture that i'm gna marry a rich husband! HAHA :D)

Cedar Guides and TKPS Brownies at Sabah Giri Guides HQ

"Silence!"

Our own cooked food

Tip of Borneo

Oh gosh, i miss that 6 days.

But they'll be forever cherished.

<3

Mar: Yess, imy too. Must must go out soon. (:

Sidewalks,

Running away from the streets we knew;

Sidewalks,

Like the time we thought was made for you.

The bridges are crumpled,

The water soaks into rocks,

That fell at the bottom of the road.

Forgot to thank my lovely angel and manito (Sabrina and Li Ying) fr the lovely gifts. So thank youuu!

Now, isn't this better?

(:

TAG REPLIESS

Khad: HAHAHA. Who's idea ah that silly game? *points finger at you* YEA OH MAN, I'm gna miss hanging with actv. dept alot alot alot...)): but thank you dear fr all the amazingly awesome fun times

hock: yea, we should! any slc outings? haha or maybe ask mar organize sana outing then i'll tag along :D and long time since i've talked to you, everything alright? (;

C! :D : no, you whr got look kuku! Nice whaat! Hahaha, and thanks thanks yes i'm very vivd. Hohoho :)

Amanda: HAHAHA OMG YES. And how we were so nervous before colours! And how many times we had to tie and retie the flag scared ahem was gna scold us fr taking too long!